Thursday, June 28, 2012

Horrible at saying goodbye.

 A new bloom from my hibiscus.

Last Friday, my brother Phil, my husband Bill, and I drove to Chicago to take my dad to the air port. We had dinner beforehand at McDonald's where I insisted on taking a couple of photos much to my brother's chagrin. I know McDonald's is hardly the picturesque photo op, but it was the last time I'll see my dad for the next 6 to 8 months. Not sure when his next R & R is.

I knew I was bad at saying goodbye from the first time we dropped my dad off at the airport when he first departed to Afghanistan. I was crying and gasping for air for a few minutes on the way home. Meg, my sister, was with me and Bill. She was crying to and trying to comfort me.This time, I cried a lot, but there was no gasping. I wasn't hysterical. I did better this time.

My brother was strong, and Bill was there to comfort me. He was so sweet. We got back to my dad's, and my brother and I talked outside his house for a while. I realized things are changing for a while. My whole family's life is in transition including mine. My brother just graduated college and is doing great at job searching. My sister is finding her passion. Skydiving is included. :) My mom is experiencing what it's like to have your kids finally become adults. My dad is having the adventure of his life while working in Afghanistan and doing some traveling on the side, hopefully soon. As for me, I love being the newly wed. Some people say being married isn't that much different than dating. For us, it changed quite a few things. I'm so glad to be on this journey with him.

I'm right where I want to be in my life. It's the best feeling.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Hanging out with Dad.

I am so happy to say that my dad was able to make our wedding reception. He had been working in Afghanistan for the past four months and decided to use some of his vacation days to be back in time for the reception and visit family and friends. It has been awesome having him back and being able to hang out with him.

We've gone out to dinner a lot and sat and talked at his house with my siblings. Plus, I love that I don't have to think about the fourteen hour time difference while he is back. I can talk to him whenever. Love that.

I will be spending as much time as I can this week with my dad, since he leaves on Friday to go back to Afghanistan. Tonight, we are having dinner at Bill's parents house. I love spending this time with him, but it's hard knowing I won't see him till February next year when his contract is up.

I'm staying positive though, since Skype, calls, and email make it so easy to stay in touch even though I'm totally not used to having him so far away! :) Getting to spend Father's day with him was the best. We made tacos, hung out, and watched a movie, War Horse.

I'm so glad you were able to spend this time with us, Dad. Love you.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

One of the best weekends.

 I love this idea.

This past weekend, we had our wedding reception on Saturday! We have been planning for this event for months. We had decided to have a wedding reception here in Illinois, since we had a destination wedding in Florida in January. I had Friday off to prepare for it, and I was able to clean the house and organize our second bedroom that is currently used as our storage room.

That evening, my mom and brother came over and helped us decorate the tables with the jars I made. We also put ribbon just about everywhere including the trees. I had a such a great time decorating and planning for our reception. Once Saturday finally came, I went with my mom in the morning to pick up the salad and to get our cake. It was beautiful! I loved it. A lot of people told us it was good too. I was happy with that, and I really liked the raspberry filling. So good. I will post pictures. We had photographer come and take pictures for us, and I am waiting to order them. I think he did a really good job, and I can't wait to see his work. I was in a rush to get ready for the pictures after me and my mom came back with the cake. I was nervous that I wasn't going to get ready in time, but everything turned out fine when we were all taking pictures together. We had a lot of fun doing it. Bill and I even got to take pictures driving around in his parents' white golf cart with our wedding clothes on, and we wore our sun glasses too. Classy. ha :)

The party started a couple of hours later, and our guests started to arrive at Bill's parents farm. It was fun seeing people come and be able to talk a little with them. I loved catching up with some of the people who I haven't seen in a while! I wish I had of gotten more time with everyone, but it's hard with more people there. Bill's mom and I counted 125 people who came to our reception. There were 35 people at our wedding in Florida so it was definitely a big switch that made it more challenging to talk to everyone, but I still had a very good time. Later in the evening, there were fewer people, and we were all dancing and hanging out together. Even our little nieces were on the dance floor and having fun with us. I held little Sophia, our niece, and danced with her. She was cute, and it was so fun seeing her smile and reach up for me to pick her up. It was nice to just forget about our responsibilities for a night and enjoy each other.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

thoughts on my 25th birthday

Today I turn 25... 25!? I thought I would feel bad that I'm getting older, but I actually don't mind adding another year to my age. I have had another year with my family and friends. I got married this past year to my husband Bill. What could be better than that?

I woke up today, and I'm still sick. I have hay fever that won't go away. My sinuses are packed, and I'm completely congested even my asthma is starting to act up. I'm just taking it easy. I was really sad that I had to cancel my plans for today, but I was very happy to have it already rescheduled. I took Friday off and can't wait to spend it with family.

Since, I'm sick, and I don't feel like doing much I thought I would write about something very dear to my heart. I know I already mentioned in a post that my Grandpa passed, but I haven't yet had the time to write about what he experienced and what me, my mom, and my aunt also experienced with him the day before he died.

My aunt Amy, my mom, and I were siting next to my Grandpa who was resting in his hospital bed. He wasn't being extremely talkative, but my aunt could tell he wanted to communicate so she gave him oxygen. My Grandpa was able to talk to us more. At one point, he looked like he was talking to someone. My mom asked him who he was talking to, and he responded with, "Jesus." It was so sweet to hear him say that. He seemed at peace.

My mom asked him if he wanted her to read from the Bible, and he told her, "They expect you to." That was his immediate response. My aunt nudged me right away, and we both looked at each other in shock. I know he must have felt so connected to God and was talking with him. How else can someone explain his automatic response? I felt so blessed to witness him feeling a closeness with Jesus.

A little while after that, he was looking towards the corner of the room. His attention was fixated on it. He started to smile and look more intently. My mom asked him what he was seeing, and he said, "Don't you see their wings?" I feel like all of us got goose bumps when we heard him say that. I know I did. Grandpa was so happy and even giggled at one point, because he couldn't contain his joy.

He was seeing angels. I truly believe that with my whole heart and mind. I know that God was preparing him to enter into his kingdom. He gave my Grandpa a gift that I know not many people receive. In giving him that gift, God also blessed me, my mom, and my aunt by being able to witness how he felt when he saw those angels and to know from him that is what he was seeing. That day, I experienced something so wonderful. When I think about it, I find so much comfort knowing that God comforts us. He is there to take care of us even though we aren't perfect. He loves us.

His love is the best gift I will ever receive. I am forever thankful.

Friday, June 1, 2012

Wedding boquet with roses and hydrangeas and fake pearls.

I wanted to thank all of you who commented on my last post. Your kind words really helped me feel cared for during this time. Even though, I wasn't super close with my Grandpa, it still hurts. I have been able to find comfort in the family I have. My immediate family and I are very close. We confide in each other and care for each other. I couldn't be more grateful for them and all the support we share for each other.

These past couple of weeks, I have been making almost all of my decorations for our reception, including my bouquet.  I made it out of fake roses and hydrangeas, and I glued on pearls to the middle of the roses. All of my ideas for it are a combination of what I found online. I love my bouquet. What do you think?